Out with the old, in with the new

Dear Ex,

This is an open letter to you. There is a reason you are called an Ex. After so many years I am compelled to write this letter on your multiple comebacks. I fail to understand the reason to it. When we were together, I left no stones upturned to make it work. Did more than I should. Agree love was there then, but with the breakup all that was left was pain and resentment. I am not saying it was easy for you, but trust me overcoming you was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I hold no hard feelings or grudges against you. It was there for only for the first few days. Eventually I was able to move and reach the stage acceptance of us. Now I feel a fool to let you in during your initial comebacks. I wasn’t weak. I just didn’t want to regret not giving another chance. But you took me for granted and went in and out as you wished. And finally one day gathering all my courage was able to shut and lock that door. Cutting of things forever. It wasn’t ego. I wanted to heal myself, before being hurt again. Today years later when you want a comeback again, got me to thinking what did change suddenly. Am I your booty call or you just bored of your usual routine life. There’s a little thought back in head trying to escape the black box of feelings I had locked up years ago. As I suppress the thought, there’s another popping in my head. Where were all these feelings when I needed you the most. How could you abandon me like that. In a flash from anticipating the missing part to feeling the agony again. I am not sorry on saying NO, because I can’t wrongly lead you. I am not sorry for not feeling the same way for you, because I waited a long time. Here is a simple request. I don’t know if we can ever be friends. That is NOT because I am reminded of the past. It’s because every time we talk a bit, you slip to saying, you love and miss me. It gets awkward for me, not knowing how to say NO again and again. Every time something like this happens, I politely try to change topic or make excuse to leave. That doesn’t mean I am making you beg or anything. I am simply not interested anymore.

Please accept this. Live and let live in peace.

Yours was once, Your Ex

An Open Letter to My Ex

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